"I don't know if you know what it feels like to be alone. Truly alone, when nobody has ever loved you, and you have never really loved anybody. When you genuinely hate yourself to your bones, when you are an ugly jealous monster, when there is never a point to anything. It's around this stage that you realise that nobody will miss you when you die. Nobody really noticed that you died a long time ago. You have been a ghost for so long, you don't know what it means to feel."